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Remembering a friend and learning to Live


This morning I awaken to a very simple and important message. J has walked to the stairgates of Heaven and we appreciate your support through this difficult time. A message that I knew was coming but was not quite ready for. My good friend and coworker has lost his battle to cancer with his beautiful wife by his side!

naturally this lead me to reflect on the important things, and in all honesty the car breaking down and the kids screaming their heads off just aren’t so bad in the grand scheme of life. Although stressful, it is something we can live through.

I have only known J for about  a year and a half, but in that year and a half he has taught me more about living than the past 33 years have. He loved his wife more than I have ever seen a man love a woman. I remember teasing him and asking ” She’s hot, how did you get her?” His response was a simple smile and he would saY ” Don’t know and I am not questioning it”

When J started to become noticeably ill, I remember asking him if he had seen an oncologist and he wanted to rule out other options fits. Part of me knew his cancer had some back but he wasn’t ready to find that our yer. He told me he just cannot do that to his mom again ( his first cancer diagnosis at 15) and he would not do that to his wife, He did not want to leave her behind. They never had any children and he was worried what would keep her going if it was bad.

Obviously the most selfless person I have ever known he taught me about loving with your entire heart. To forgive easily, and just live. So today I will let go of the stress of yesterday. I will hug my kids a little tighter.

Today and every day I will love a little deeper, laugh a little harder. I will not dwell on the past. Today is the day that we begin to live like we were dying. Because today is our only guarantee. tomorrow is not promised to us, so today I just enjoy being able to live in the here and now!


RIP my friend and thank you for teaching me how  live in the moment!


I am a wife of ten years, mom of three, Nurse and student! My household is quite chaotic and busy. With a six year old going on sixteen. we shall call her "Sassy", a four year old, who is stubborn as a mule, she shall be called " mini me", and a one year old, we will call "Buddy". Our girls do Ballet, and our son, well he is all boy! Very curious and always getting in to something. When we found out we were having a boy i laughed and said " god must have known we needed a little less diva in our life," Ha, little boys are quite the handful! I love my kids with all of my heart, and i love my job too! As a nurse leader i get to see many sides to healthcare and help encourage and guide new nurses. I love taking care of patients and being able to have grown up talk and then come home to my babies. The house is usually chaotic with lots of tantrums, and messes, but i wouldn't change it for a bit. On the rare occasion that i am able to have some spare time to myself, i like to read, bake and decorate cakes, and take pictures of my kiddos. Time to myself is rare so i decided to start this blog to have a creative outlet and connect with other working moms, who might be going through the same situations as myself. I hope you enjoy my thoughts and stories as a mom, student, wife and Nurse! These stories will range from Diapers and tutus to meetings and boardrooms! and everything that falls in between. Enjoy and thanks for visiting my site.

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