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As I sit here and read over the comments from my last post, a feeling of happiness comes over me. I honestly was nervous about publishing my most previos post out of fear that it would paint me in a bad light. As the first few comments came I I realized how silly that was. Comments that essentially said, hey I happens to all of us and you are not alone gave me a sense of normalcy when I had been beating myself up.
Thank You to everyone of you for your Kind words and Support. It has truly helped me to get past and Move on. yesterday We had a great day. I tooke the girls to see Big Hero 6! It was Just the three of us. We had fun and the movie was super cute, however mini me kepth clearing her throat throughout the movie. I tried to take her to get some water but older sis wouldnt move and I was not going to leave her alobe in that theatre so we stayed. Apparently proving to be annoying to our neighbors. I kept hearing the husband say something to his wife about being rude and I just ignored it. Besides there were people with their screaming babies there which to me was even more annoying. Eventually he turned toward us and said do you guys want some water ill go get it! His posture and tone ws very aggressive and not at all polite. So what does my smart ass do but say no thank you we are fine. Which pisses him off and he gets up. Fine with me dude. She’s five so what do you! His kid that kept coughing through the movie obviously did not bother him, just saying.
Anyways the rest of the day was great and stress was low. However today was a different story. I am still trying to show patience but must admit that I yelled once. The constant crying, screaming and hitting each other got to me, what can I say. Thankfully I caught myself and walked away before I could reach a point of complete anger.
What I learned is that I am a work I progress and will try to improve each day! I am not perfect and my self expectation of perfection needs to go out the window. We are all parents just trying to survive the day. Most days are stressful but every now and then you get a glimmer of hope!