Last night was the school’s family shopping night at the book fair. Since we love to read of course I showed with way too much money to spend on books! We had to, right? Anyhoo once we got home with our fun loot Duckling #1 (7yo) immediately sat down on my lap and she read her first of three books.
I haven’t held y 7yo in quite some time as she has grown quite independent so this was a very special moment in which she was feeling very loving. It’s amazing how one moment can bring such happiness and sadness at the same time. I was happy that she could read that book all by herself yet sad that I do not get to read to her like a baby anymore.
From the day we brought our children home we have cuddled and read them stories like Little Nut brown hare and goodnight moon. We have been lost in stories and the fantasy that we get to live in with our little ones. As a mom you prepare yourself to miss certain milestones. You miss the way your then 2yo says yee yee for the word monkey or the way that same child waves with their hand turned backwards. There is honestly one milestone that I did not prepare myself to miss. That would be the one in which my kids needed me to read to them.
Duckling #1 reads at a fourth grade level and it is amazing how fast she has learned. This girl loves books and often walks into school with her nose in one. So at first grade she is quite the independent reader leaving her mom missing those snuggly nights in which we would read her favorite good night moon!
So last night as she sat on my lap with a book she was reading I breathed it all in. The scent of her hair, the sound of her voice as she was reading about Eva the owl. The familiarity of her sitting in my lap even though over the course of seven years she is far from the 6 pound baby that I brought home.
I remembered cuddling her in her yellow glider that I had custom-made and still graces the room of my son. Stories like If you take a mouse to the movies and I love you through and through came so vividly in my head as they were also some of her favorites. I remembered her laugh and the way we would spend all day playing on the floor without a care in the world. When you have one child there is more time to do that I guess.
I may not have much more days of her sitting in my lap, so today I took it all in. She is growing at warp speed and I suspect she will surpass me in height within two years time if not sooner. My husband is 6’3″ so this is not far-fetched. Today I have my little girl but in the blink of an eye I will have a young lady. So for now as I sit here with my child reading to herself I am missing Goodnight Moon!