Locking eyes with her in the rear view mirror, my oldest says “momma, I can take Bailey to class if you want” Her voice sounded unsure but her eyes said I want to take this on! She being the big sister wanted to take our little kindergartener and show her the ropes. Part of me wanted to say “no, I want to do it!” But being the oldest sibling myself I fully understand the duty we have to our younger siblings. I may have wanted to have that moment with my kindergartener just as I did with her older sister on her first day of school, but I looked into those sweet oldest’s eyes and said of course you can! That would be a big help to mommy!
Now her voice carried with confidence as she explained the happenings of elementary school! you know, the arts the crafts and all the library books you get to read! Next as it was time to get out of the car, it was talks of recess and how you can play on the jungle Gym. She went on to explain the different play grounds and how the cool older kids get to play on that one! I kissed my sweet little five-year old goodbye and hugged her tight as she begins her next chapter in life.
This chapter that doesn’t always include mom and where my influence on her starts to lessen. It’s bittersweet actually. The new-found independence and the for sure beginnings of losing anything that can be considered baby. Tears filled my eyes as I watched these two walking side by side. Talking, laughing as they walked into the place that begins your preparation into adulthood.
I am proud of my oldest for taking it upon herself to help her sister out and a little saddened by the fact that she is growing way too fast. I still see that small baby with her beautiful big eyes and gorgeous hair when I look at her!
Motherhood is quite the roller coaster isn’t it? The emotions that comes with this role doesn’t makes sense to those who are not a mother. One minute they are driving us insane and we can’t run far enough away from them and the next minute we don’t want to blink because time goes by just too fast. We tell our kids to become more independent only to become a little saddened once they do. We long for the baby years again while fully embracing the independent years. If I were looking at someone else with these constant change in emotions I would suggest they see their therapist and get some good medications going pronto.
Today I watched proudly at my girls as they embraced their new adventures. Today was a good day to be a mom! Let’s face it, after dealing with the terrible two’s I needed a good mom day? What are some of your good mom day moments?
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