I walked into the parent teacher conference afraid and fearful. The six year old has been struggling with Kindergarten and we were meeting with the guidance counselor to discuss the possibility of retention. I had my plan. I was going to yell at them and demand an IQ test. I was going to let them have it and ask for tutoring. I was going to blame them and say it was because they were not working with her enough. Reading should be fun and they were making it about passing the test instead of fostering an enjoyment for reading.
Upon entering the room, her teacher says, well, when we first scheduled this meeting she was only performing at 56% with sight word recognition. Now she is at 75%!!! So we really don’t need to go through this process now.
Throwing my hands in the air I yelled woohoo!! I’m passing Kindergarten ya’ll, then I felt a little frustrated. I had to use my lunch break at work to come all the way across town to be told, never mind. she’s doing good now. My next thought was who the hell cares, this is good news and we need to celebrate!
This year has been damn hard. I remember Kindergarten being fun and playing in centers and enjoying story time. This constant testing and memorizing sight words has me confused. Did we skip Kindergarten and go right to the first grade? There is an actual state regulation that if my Kindergartner cannot recognize 80% of her sight words, then she has to be held back and start all over again! It’s insane the amount of work and pressure these kids are put under.
Although, I have tried to shield her from the stress and anxiety I can help but wonder if she still despite my efforts feels nervous and worried. Around Christmas time she began to blink her eyes excessively and continues to do so now. We have an eye appointment for her, but I am quite worried that she has developed a tick. The closet appointment we could get is next month, so I guess I will have an update on that in four weeks.
We have worked hard on sight words in the past month, so I am glad to see she has improved. I have bought hooked on phonics, letter magnets, and pain in hopes that getting a little creative will help her learn. I have even stopped going to Barnes and nobles after work to do homework on days that I have assignments due. instead, I have been coming home, helping with sight word memorization, and then completing homework after the kids are asleep. I am tired ya’ll, like damn tired. At this point it is safe to say that I am the one passing Kindergarten 😉
For now, we will just continue to learn and pray the improvement continues and my sweet baby can move up to the first grade. Who knew that Kindergarten was so hard!