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I see you

Oh my baby girl… I know life has been hard. Long gone are the days of the vision I had in my head of what a happy, child looked like. At the age of ten you experience the type of pain and suffering no child should feel. The kind where your mind plays tricks on you, where the world is a scary place, but not as scary as the thoughts that play out in your mind. I want you to know something. Your think your invisible, but you are not. I see. you..

I see the stress, the anxiety and guilt for being different on your face. I see the lines of worry that something bad will happen. I see you trying to be perfect and falling short every time. I see how hard you work to make others like you and seem “normal” amongst your peers. I see your longing to be popular and care free. I see you..

Guess what else I see? I see your amazing intellect and power to lead others. I see your amazingly extraordinary imagination, and creativity. I see the love and adoration you have for your siblings, when others aren’t looking of course. I see you..

I see the compassion you have for animals, and how they adore and love you back. I see the artistry you have and one day you will have a painting or sketch in a museum. I see how, with all the cares in the world, you seem to not care what others think when you wear your wolf ears to school. I see how you wear those wolf ears, to shield yourself with the armor of a superhero. I see you..

I know you wish you were different. I know you wish the anxiety and depression would just go away. Baby so do i. As I held your face with tears in your eyes and mine, I told you.. you are perfect God made you this way and he doesn’t make mistakes..  Honey, you ARE perfect and God does not make mistakes! You will be and are  an amazing leader, person and daughter! We will walk through these trials, and we will learn to deal with the challenges thrown our way. You may feel invisible, but honey I see you! 20181104_134337.jpg

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I am a wife of ten years, mom of three, Nurse and student! My household is quite chaotic and busy. With a six year old going on sixteen. we shall call her "Sassy", a four year old, who is stubborn as a mule, she shall be called " mini me", and a one year old, we will call "Buddy". Our girls do Ballet, and our son, well he is all boy! Very curious and always getting in to something. When we found out we were having a boy i laughed and said " god must have known we needed a little less diva in our life," Ha, little boys are quite the handful! I love my kids with all of my heart, and i love my job too! As a nurse leader i get to see many sides to healthcare and help encourage and guide new nurses. I love taking care of patients and being able to have grown up talk and then come home to my babies. The house is usually chaotic with lots of tantrums, and messes, but i wouldn't change it for a bit. On the rare occasion that i am able to have some spare time to myself, i like to read, bake and decorate cakes, and take pictures of my kiddos. Time to myself is rare so i decided to start this blog to have a creative outlet and connect with other working moms, who might be going through the same situations as myself. I hope you enjoy my thoughts and stories as a mom, student, wife and Nurse! These stories will range from Diapers and tutus to meetings and boardrooms! and everything that falls in between. Enjoy and thanks for visiting my site.

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